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So not saying that my New Years resolution is to write more posts, but I really want to be intentional about doing so. I am going to try to find time to read and write more. As much as I LOVE Netflix, I think it is time to stop watching re-runs of The Office and Parks and Recreation. In my first post I made it a point that I was going to be more intentional about life; about what decisions I make, who I talk to, how I live my life. I also want to be intentional about sharing all of that. I have come to the conclusion I am not going to sugar-coat anything. You see, (most, not all) blogs post about all things good in peoples lives; about how amazing their trip was or their stories about exciting events. I plan on posting a bunch of those, but I also want to write about how sucky life can be sometimes. I thank The Lord above for my life and I do thank him for my struggles because they do make me a stronger person, but life sucks sometimes.
I know this isn't really a "New Year, New Me" type of post. I don't want to kick off the new year saying that I am going to be happy and become a better version of myself. I want to say that I am going to struggle with a lot this year. I am bracing myself for changes in friendships, relationships (or lack of), and family issues. I am clenching tight for the punch that 2016 is going to give me. I am desperately taking 1 Peter 5:7 to heart this year because it is something that I really need to remember. "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." Now I don't want to diagnose myself but I this past year has been filled with anxiety. I have been mentally, emotionally, physically and sometimes spiritually drained from so many issues and struggles that I went through. It affected the way I ate, it kept me up at night, it changed my behavior towards friends and family. I would be happy and excited one minute and then out of the blue I just wanted to sit in a corner by myself with a blanket because the entire room was closing in on me and I didn't know why. I pray every day for my anxiety to be a thing of the past. New Years Eve proved me wrong.